My first everything part 4 post #5

My first everything part 4 post #5

July 1998

Day 3 continued

I headed back to my room to take a shower and cool off. I was probably on the martial arts most wanted list by now. I needed to be alone for a while.

I spent an hour in my room trying to calm down. I headed downstairs to the party. Staying up in my room was depressing. I hoped that the party would help cheer me up a bit.

I was in the hallway that leads to the party. I saw Atlanta leaving the with a group of friends. I didn’t see T with her though. I thought about calling out for her, but I was done with her. I imagined that hanging out with her tonight would be like being stabbing myself in the heart with a knife and we would take turns twisting it. I have had enough of being played. I was going to do my own thing tonight. It was the first rational and smart decision I had made the whole weekend.

I waited for her and all my friends leave the room before I made my way towards the party. I made it inside without being detected by anyone I knew. I really needed to be anonymous right now. I felt a whole lot better after dancing for awhile. Feeling like my old happy go lucky self again.

The DJ decided to play a slow song. I was about to exit the floor. I didn’t want any female to male interactions tonight. Like that wasn’t going to happen? Right when I turned around, there was a tall blonde with curly hair right in front of me. Looking back and trying to describe what she looked like. She looked like Taylor Swift if she was 18 in 1999 with nice curves.

She had beautiful eyes. A moment in her eyes felt like I had been staring at her for an hour. She had this look on her face. She wanted something. Like when I was a child at the toy store looking at a toy I really wanted, but I couldn’t play with it because it was still in the box.

I moved my hands towards her waist. I began to rest my hands on her hips. She moved towards me. I wasn’t prepared for her to do that. My hands fell from her hips and my hands landed on to her ass. I quickly grabbed her waist feeling embarrassed that I had just groped her. Even though I think she did that purpose. I looked at her and she smiled. All my nervousness vanished.

As we continued to dance, she held me closer and closer. I have never had a girl come on to me like this before. I was being seduced for the first time in my life. I had mixed emotions about what was unfolding. I loved being wanted but I wasn’t ready to be with another girl right now. I was thinking about Atlanta. I only wanted her and didn’t want to settle for anything else.

She was a sweet southern girl. I loved her southern accent.

“Are you staying here at the hotel?” She asked me

“Yeah” I was being short because all I could think about was Atlanta.

“I’m staying a couple blocks away. I’m tired and don’t feel like walking back” She whined to me.

“I’m sorry that you have to walk back in this humid weather.” I countered her cry for help

The song ended and I thanked her for the dance. Did I really just turn down this gift she was handing to me on a silver platter? It didn’t matter, I just wanted to go to bed and have this miserable weekend be over as soon as possible.

I walked to the elevators and passed one of my friends that I haven’t spoken to this whole weekend. I felt bad that I had been ignoring my friends because I had been avoiding Atlanta. So I sat down to catch up with him. He was with three other girls. They were really cute Latin girls.

We sat together and talked for a bit. I suggested that we should move to my room and that it would be far more comfortable there. Everyone agreed and we headed upstairs to my room.

My friend and one of the girls laid together on one bed and the other two girls were on each side of me. I played some mood music. We all talked for a bit. Then I was just talking to the girls that had me sandwiched in. They sat really close to me. My heart was racing. After ten minutes my friend and his girl left to go to his room.

The energy in the room was changing. After turning down the southern bell, I wasn’t going to pass up the first and only attempt at a threesome in my life. We began to get a bit touchy with each other.

All of a sudden the front door explodes open. All three of us were startled. What the fuck is going on?

Guess who just entered the room? Atlanta! She had come with T. I was destined to have a miserable weekend. But then T left the room. I was completely confused.

She hopped onto the bed. Climbed on top of me and kissed me. The other two girls then got up and left the room. This girl was sabotaging my life. I was confused, hurt, happy and satisfied all at the same time. I didn’t care that I wasn’t going to have a threesome. I had forgotten that were two other girls that were flirting with me. My mind and body had finally got what it had been longing for. We made out passionately for a long time before saying anything.

I asked her what was going on. What was going on with her and T? Why did she avoid me for so long? Why did she all of a sudden came back to me? What happened in Kentucky? Why did she lead me on for so long? I had a million questions.

Four words would answer every question I had in my head.

“I have a boyfriend.” She said as she dropped her head onto my chest

“So why did you hang out with T all weekend then?”

“He was trying to hook up with me all weekend. I needed someone to distract me from you. But I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to be with you again.”

I forgave her and we spent the shortest 4 hours of my life. We talked about her current situation with her boyfriend. She told me why she acted like she did in Kentucky. I told her what I was going through without her.

The sun was rising and I had to catch a flight home. I didn’t want to leave her. This time I wasn’t going to leave without a way to contact her. We exchanged phone numbers, email, addresses and aim screen names. I wasn’t going to let her walk out of my life again.

It was the most passionate night of my life. I wish it could always be that way with her. She had stolen my heart.