Loopkicks camp – It’s a trap Post # 23

Loopkicks camp – It’s a trap Post # 23

July 2004

I was going to stay in after that eye opening night I had the night before. I nice chilled night in would be nice. Playing video games until I passed out. I know that I drown myself in games to get away form my problems. Everyone has his or her vices and this was mine.

Around 7pm I get a call from a friend of mine. Asking me where I am and what I’m doing. I told him I was going to stay in and take it easy tonight. He scolded me and reminded me that I had promised to go hang out with him and everyone at this party he was going to tonight.

Bah I really wanted to stay in and be away from people. But a promise is a promise. So I told him I would be there in a bit. Wouldn’t hurt to hang out for an hour and then bounce.

I finally made it out of the house and drove to the party. Of course I left a lot later then when I told him I would. The party was uneventful. It was a random house party. But of course a lot of the guests from the camp were there. Which means Throwback was there with gifted.

Throwback spotted me right away and we made eye contact. I have such a soft spot for her. So we chilled and talked the entire party.

The party ended early. It was starting to get dull and all of us left. I told everyone I was going home. My friend told me I was a bitch for going home early. But I didn’t give a damn. I Headed to my car to make my exit before anyone else could give me his or her opinion.

I began to open my car door to get into my car. Throwback opens the passenger door and sits down before I even step foot into the car. I think they all conspired and choose her because they all knew that she would be the only one that could get me go back to the house to hang out with everyone. Those bastards.

“What are you doing?” I asked

“ I need a ride back to the house” She replied with a sly grin

“ How did you get here? Who drove you here? Can’t you get a ride back with them?”

“ Darkness drove us, but the car is full now”

“ How convenient. I’m sure someone else has room for you. I was gonna go straight home from here.”

“ I know, but I want you to drive me back”

“ OK I give up, you win. I’ll drive you back.”

So I drove her back to the house. She had some kind of magic spell on me. I always give in to her. I enjoy being around her. She has this way of making me feel so blissful.

I don’t remember our conversation in the car but what I can remember is that she held my hand during the drive back and made the drive well worth the trouble. I missed her. Being with her sealed up all my hang-ups. It was a very pleasant drive back.

We arrived back to the house and Throwback walked into the house before I did. I took my time. I guess I was preparing myself to be around people again.

I walked in and said hi to everyone. People asked me where I had been. I just replied with I was just busy with personal stuff.

I ran into a slightly drunk Gifted during my rounds. I wasn’t sure what she would say to me. Maybe she would tell me to leave Throwback alone and not to cause any more drama or tell me that I was a dick for making them look like groupies.

“ Hey “ I said

“ There is something we need to talk about. “ she replied

“ What’s up? “ I answered

Here it comes.

“ Throwback really likes you. You be real good to her. She is a great girl and deserves to be treated that way. I know you’re a good guy and think you two are good together. Don’t play her or I’ll come after you. “ She said

Then she gave me a hug and told me that Throwback is in the room behind her waiting for me.

I was totally caught off guard by that. This has been the strangest week of my life.

I opened the door and saw Throwback lying down on a comforter on the floor. My heart began racing and the feeling of excitement-started building from my chest trying to escape my body.

I sat down next to her and she put her hand on my shoulder and pulled me down to her. I laid next to her and stared into her eyes. We kissed. It was beautiful moment. We continued to make out and enjoyed being with each other without worrying about what other people were thinking or would say.

We talked for hours. She told me everything that she was going through since we first met. I confessed my feelings for her and told her how much I thought about her. We kissed again. When our lips pulled apart after that kiss. I stared into her eyes again.

“ I love you “ I confessed to her

She just stared at me. I can tell she was caught off guard by it and was in a bit of shock.

“ You don’t have to tell me you love me. This is how I fell about you. I just want you to know that I love you. All that matters to me is that you know how I feel about you. When your ready, I know you will say it to me.”

We spent the rest of the night talking and cuddling. She had an early flight in the morning. Time was passing so fast. I didn’t want her to leave. But this time we walked away knowing that we had something special and acknowledged that we wanted more.

Loopkicks camp – The wake up call post #22

Loopkicks camp – The wake up call post#22

July 2004

Camp was an amazing experience. It was such a great learning experience for everyone. Who would have thought a bunch of teenage misfits with no business experience and no organizational skills could pull such an epic event off.

The mini show was successful also. All the guests performed in the afternoon show. There were some very memorable performances. The routine I did with Wild One was ok. Wasn’t as good as I expected it to be. It wasn’t the right crowd I think. The routine was for more a mature audience. But you have to try new things regardless of the outcome. Everything after the show was going to be a breeze. Everyone had a night to do whatever he or she wanted. I needed the mental rest.

Wild One and I had definitely become a lot closer as the days passed. She wasn’t as wild and crazy as she appeared. She and I flirted hardcore for a long time that night. I wasn’t going to give in though. I don’t think she has ever lost this game.

So instead of losing the game. She decided that she would hook up with someone else instead. Which I didn’t mind. The satisfaction of winning was enough for me in this situation. Everyone was having a great time at the guest party house. Time flew by. I really needed to get home and get some sleep. On my way out I ran into Wild One. I told her bye and said I would see her tomorrow.

I asked her if she needed a ride back to the hotel. She said sure. On the drive to the hotel I asked her if she was going to see Shuriken later tonight. She said yes. Then she responded with

“But I would rather have someone else though”

I told her that she was being greedy and a bad girl. She gave me the look that said, “I don’t give a fuck”. I looked at her and said “hell, why not”.

I followed her back to her room. It will be a night I will never forget and not in a good way. She didn’t get the name Wild One for no reason. Here is how it all went down.

Wild One and I did our thing. Afterwards I was exhausted. There was no way I was driving home. I decided to just crash there. Minutes later there is a knock on the door. Wild One is in the bathroom. So I opened the door. It was Shuriken. I was too tired to care who was here. I told him Wild One was in the Bathroom. I went back to the bed that Wild One and I just hooked up on. The room had two queen beds. Shuriken laid on the other bed. I rolled over to go to sleep. I hear Wild One come out of the bathroom. Moments later I hear them making out. I know where this is leading. I fell asleep mid make out. Thankfully.

When I woke up in the morning, Shuriken was gone. I went to the bathroom. When I came out I laid next to Wild One. I have no idea why I didn’t just go home. A little while later. We hooked up again. I felt disgusting. I don’t know why I decided to go at it again with her. But it was definitely a wake up call.

I drove home feeling used and filthy. I did it to myself. I was paying the price though. I was having anxiety attacks. I was a complete mess. When I got home, I just went to my room and laid in my bed in the fetal position. I didn’t contact anyone for a long time. I slowly pulled it together. Enough to turn on my computer. I still didn’t want to interact with anyone.

My computer automatically connected to aim when it starts up. Which I had forgotten in my messed up head situation. Before I could log off of aim. Throwback messaged me. Why did she want to talk to me right now? Of all people, why her? She asked where I was and that everyone was worried about me. I told her that I had a rough night and didn’t want to be around anyone today.

She asked me why. I told her that I didn’t want to talk about it. She told me that she understood and that if I needed someone to talk to, that she would be here to listen.

I really needed someone to talk to. I was making it worse holding it inside. An hour later I told her that I would drive over there and talk to her about my problem. She said that she would be waiting for me.

I drove over to the guesthouse and met up with Throwback. We sat down on the curb far away from the guesthouse and I told her about everything that happened. I told her that I know I did it to myself and I have no one to blame but myself. That’s why I didn’t want to talk to anyone. She was very consoling and had a way to make me feel much better.

I thanked her for talking with me about everything. She asked what I was going to do for the rest of the day. I told her that I would probably just stay home and try to get over it myself. I could tell that she wanted to tell me that, that wasn’t a good way to deal with it. But she told me again that she would be there for me anytime I needed someone to talk to and not be a stranger. I gave her a hug and left.

Loopkicks Camp - The Game Post #21

Loopkicks Camp - The Game Post #21

July 2004

Campers were arriving to the camp today. For the most part we had everyone’s travel info. We picked up campers and drove them to the hotel. One problem was that on the camp’s website the hotel for the camp was not the one we were actually using. A couple of campers went there to look for us. So we went on a while goose chase looking for stranded campers.

One group of campers we were looking for didn’t know where they were. Ended up at some Asian fast food place they said. We stopped at a boba place as we waited for Dee to figure out where they were. We sat and waited for instructions from home base to find the campers. We chilled and played cards for an hour while we waited. Then we got the address of where they were. It was where we were. We turned and saw a group of kids at a table across from us with duffle bags. How retarded was that?

I walked up to them and asked if they were campers. They said yes. They told me they recognized me but wasn’t sure if it was me. They were to scared to ask lol. Kids are funny.

That was the only real drama of the day, thankfully. The first night of camp went very smoothly. That day I decided to do a mini show at the end of the camp. Have a little show for the campers and utilize all the talent we had. It would be a good show.

I decided to do a ballad piece for the show. I intended Throwback to do it with me since she was the most talented girl and it would easy to show emotion with someone that you have been intimate with.

But she refused to do it with me. I knew she would say no but I had to ask. So I had to find another girl to do it with me. There one other girl that was decent enough to fill her shoes. By doing this, I was 100% for sure getting myself into some kind of drama. Fuck it! Why not? “Let’s do this bitch” A quote made famous by Chris Balualua.

So I choose Wild One. Wild One was a very close friend of Atlanta. Like a little sister to her. I’ve known her since she was a teenager. Watched her grow up. She had been a drama queen just like her mentor. I think she was about 20 years old by this time.

She and I clicked right away. The routine was coming together smoothly. The piece had a person singing live while we performed. It was a love song and we told the story with martial arts. We had to show that we were attracted to each other. Of course this would lead to us becoming closer with each other.

Later that night there was party at a friend’s house. Everyone was going to be there. After we dropped off all the campers and fed them. I headed over to the party. When I got there the party was nearly over. When I say over I mean everyone was drunk, sleepy or about to hook up with someone. Throwback was there and it was the first time we would actually talk to each other.

I asked her what was going on and why she was avoiding me. She told me that she had spent a month with Gifted’s boyfriend’s friend (Prodigy). He really liked her and she felt the same way about him. She told me they didn’t hook up but they have some very special moments together. He also had a girlfriend at the time. Which made things complicated.

She couldn’t be seen talking with me, because Gifted’s boyfriend (Darkside) would tell Prodigy that she was speaking with me again. I understood her situation and would stay away from her. Though I couldn’t keep my eyes off her. She was still so beautiful. Our conversation ended because she could feel Darkside’s eyes on her.

I then focused my attention on Wild One. She was definitely a handful in more ways the one. I think she wanted to conquer me. Maybe she wanted to have what Atlanta had and find out what it was all about. But that’s just a guess. Throwback had left way before Wild One and I began flirting. It was becoming obvious that something was brewing between us. I thought she was a fun girl to hang out with. So I would play the game with her.

That night we slept together on the couch. He played around a bit. But I kept it PG-13. I think it was the first time I have ever been the one in control of the action. We fell asleep next together.

The next day was a monstrous tricking day. Everyone was going hard. People were throwing all sorts of crazy tricks and combos. I started to realize why people would continue to come to this camp. People break through sticking points in their tricking when they are around other talented people. Walls were crumbling down. For the most part the best trickers were helping other trickers get better and not being pushed themselves. The energy here was intense and fun. People wanted to see it first had and be apart of history in the making.

The singer that was singing the song in our routine invited us to a club that he was going to that night. Wild One had a fake ID. So we decided to go together. Girls drinking alcohol, me dancing, sexual tension and me not giving a fuck equals a recipe for chaos.

We arrive to the club. Wild One is wearing a revealing dress with no undergarments. How do I know you ask? Very tight dress with No bra straps and no panty lines. What will happen tonight?

We meet up with the singer and he walks off with Wild One. Someone was trying to get her attention tonight. I didn’t care because I had a feeling she would be coming back. I danced for a while by myself and with some random girls that weren’t very interesting. I sat down for a moment and suddenly someone was kissing my ear. I turned and looked at who it was. Of course it was Wild One. She was a bit tipsy.

“Having fun?” she asked

“Yup, it could be better though” I said

“How so?” She wondered

“You with me on the dance floor” I demanded

She agreed and we went hard on the dance floor. She loved being the center of attention. I helped fueled the fire by being a good dance partner. After we danced, I told her that we should get out of here. She didn’t hesitate to even answer me. We left the club together not even saying by to the singer.

We left the club and the things calmed down a bit while I was driving us home. We talked the whole way back about everything. Atlanta, her situation with her ex, things happening in our lives. I decided to go get something to eat instead of taking her home.

We sat at Denny’s and talked for another hour. She was a cool girl underneath all that crazy. I didn’t want to ruin the cool moment we had by getting freaky. I told her how cool she was and that we shouldn’t force things and just let things happen.

The game had begun. We would sleep together at some point during this camp. It was a matter who would give in and tell the other person that they wanted to do it.

Loopkicks camp – The beginning post #20

Loopkicks camp – The beginning post #20

July 2004

Mike Chat had successfully ran the first martial arts camp in the world. The sport karate world was in a buzz about it. Suddenly other people were starting to follow his lead and have camps of their own. Chat was charging an insane amount of money for the camp. He had the reputation and credibility to charge that much money though.

The crew that I was training with called Loopkicks was having the first ever-tricking camp. The camp was focused on the tricking side of martial arts. I wasn’t involved with it because I was too busy competing, playing video games and trying to settle into my new drama free lifestyle.

Trouble and I were doing great. Since she visited me, I’ve felt so happy to have her in my life. I’ve completely stopped contact with Throwback. Which was a first good decision that I’ve made.

I wasn’t sure how well the camp would go. I thought they would have 25 people come, 35 if they were lucky, I couldn’t imagine anyone paying 700 dollars to come to camp with only tricking. On top of that they had to buy their own plane ticket.

Trickers were mainly teenagers and young adults. None of which had any real jobs.

A week before the camp I went over to Dee’s house and see how the camp was coming along. I was interested to see how many people were going to attend the camp.

I asked him how many campers he had. He told me he had 45 people that already paid and another 25 paying when they arrive. HOLY SHIT! That is a shit load of people to come and just trick. I then asked him how many guests and instructors he was flying in. He had another 15 people coming. 85 total people that he was responsible for. That didn’t include the locals that were coming. He was in way over his head. He had no idea what he was in for.

“Where are you housing the campers?” I asked

“Don’t know yet.” He nonchalantly replied

“How are you transporting them?” I asked knowing the answer

“Don’t know that either” He replied with the same demeanor

“Where are you training them?” I asked for shits and giggles

“I was gonna do it at the karate school, but there are too many people now. So I don’t know that either” He said shrugging his shoulders

WTF! He had to be fucking with me… but he wasn’t. He was so fucked. So now I had to get involved. I grabbed the phone book and we started calling around for rental vans and hotels. It was a mad dash to get everything locked down.

Nothing was planned before I talked to him. Unbelievable. I tried my best to save as much money as we could because we were doing everything last minute.

I had a friend’s mom that was sitting on a house during the housing bubble. So I offered her some money to rent the house for a week. We planned to cram all the guests and instructors there. Fifteen people crammed into a three-bedroom house lol. It would turn into an animal house.

The hotel was only 3 blocks from Dee’s house. Which made it easy to travel back and forth to take care of the campers. We got one rental van and an army of drivers. I had a friend that was teaching at a school that was about a 30-minute drive from the hotel. We had no choice but to use that school because it was cheap for us. The owner was really cool with us being there also. Everything was coming together finally.

The Wednesday of following week a handful of guests arrived. It was nice to see everyone coming together in one place. We planned to have the first tricking super session. I don’t remember ever seeing so many talented and elite trickers coming together and training at one time. I was looking forward to it.

The session was going to start at 10pm. So a couple of my friends and I went to have dinner. I told them the story about the crazy year that I’ve had so far. Telling them about all the girls that have come in and out of my life. We had a few good laughs. I dropped them off at the hotel and would meet them at the school later.

I went back to Dee’s house to see what was going on. Everything seems to be going smoothly. What a relief.

But of course nothing ever goes smoothly. Guess who shows up to camp? Throwback and Gifted. Not only are they both here. They are best friends now. Oh joy! I make eye contact with them and I get the coldest look from both of them. This is getting better and better. They don’t say hello to me. They completely ignore me.

The session was a success though. It was a lot of fun to train with all these amazing people. The highlight of the session was someone had kicked a hole in the ceiling. I would say the ceiling was about 10 feet high. Definitely an amazing feet.

Later that night I found out that Gifted was dating one of the guys I had dinner with and he was angry with her because she didn’t tell him about me. On top of that Throwback and Gifted’s Boyfriend best friend had a little thing building. So both of the girls were angry that I made them out to be groupies. It’s going to be a long camp. Oh well, shit happens.

Father knows best Post #19

Father knows best Post #19

April 2004

My life was starting to settle down again. Trouble and I had become a lot closer then we were before I stopped contacting her and got myself into a shit load of drama. Life was simple again. My day consisted of waking up go to work, trick for a bit with friends, talk to Trouble for an hour or so and then play computer games until I fell asleep. Weekends were filled with all day playing games and talking to trouble.

I would speak with Throwback through chat every so often. Nothing serious, just random talk about what’s going on in each other’s lives. I missed her a lot. There was something about her that made me long for her. Nothing I could do about it though. She made things pretty clear in Paris.

Trouble was coming to visit me in April. I was so excited to see her. All I had of her was one picture that I’ve been staring at for months. I haven’t seen her since July of last year.

I waited for her at the airport. So many things are going through my mind. What if she didn’t look like the picture I have been looking at for almost a year. What if she isn’t into me when she sees me? What if I’m not into her?

I saw a girl that resembled her but she was a lot bigger and less attractive then the picture that I had. I was so disappointed. I wanted to hide. Hoping I could blend in with the crowd so she wouldn’t recognize me. I made eye contact with her and she walked right past me. It wasn’t her. I dodged a bullet, what a relief.

Then this gorgeous girl came walking with the crowd in a white dress with flowers on it. She had the most beautiful eyes and long flowing dark red hair. I prayed to the gods that it was her. But I don’t remember her being that HOT. I made eye contact with her and she smiled. Was it her? Couldn’t be.

As I stared at her, she kept walking towards me. As she came closer my heart started beating faster and faster. Is this really happening? She was walking right towards me. I didn’t dare look behind me, it would have been heart breaking to see someone behind me that she was really smiling and walking to. I was going to keep this a fantasy for as long as I can.

She walked right up to me and gave me a hug and kiss. Wow, it was really her. She had the most amazing figure too. I was instantly in love. All the time we spent on the phone with her and now being able to see her, it all came together pretty well.

We spent a great week together. She was everything that I have been looking for since Atlanta.

We were having dinner with my parents one night. My dad asked her where she was thinking about going to college next year. She said she didn’t know yet.

“You should go to school here and live with us.” He offers.

WTF! I was in total shock. I didn’t want to move another girl into my parent’s house again. I wanted to take things slow. I looked over at her and she had that gleam in her eye. I just smiled and brushed it off. I wanted to think more about it later. I can’t believe my parents put it out there like that. It also put me on the spot. I really liked her, starting to fall in loved her but I wasn’t sure if I was ready for this again. My parents put me on the spot.

Later that night I gave it some more thought. I’ve never taken my parents advice on anything in my life. I’m sure the have a lot of life experience and have been through a lot in their lives. They are wise and are probably a good judge of character right? I should take their advice for once. Why not? I’ll try anything once.

So I asked Trouble if she wanted to live with me and go to school here in the fall. She was so happy with the thought of being here with me. So we planned out when she would move in. She needed to talk to her mom and see what she would say.

She called her mom and asked her for her opinion. She gave her the ok. This was really going to happen. She needed to finish school and save up some money for the move. We decided that August would be the best time for her to move.

I was excited with the idea of having her with me here in San Jose. She was everything I had been searching for. She was Perfect…

If I’m going to go down, I’m going down in flames post #18

If I’m going to go down, I’m going down in flames post #18

April 2004

Last month was rough. Had a long distance relationship. Left the long distance girl for a local girl. Cheated on the local girl for a girl that lived even farther then the previous long distance girl.

That was enough drama for a while; I needed a vacation from girls. Lucky for me, I got a call to compete at a tournament in Paris.

A fourteen-hour plane ride later, we arrived in Paris. The promoter of the event picked us up from the airport. I was excited to be in a foreign country and performing. Also I felt so relieved to be away from all the drama from last month.

I asked the promoter who else is coming to the tournament.

“Throwback will be here later tonight” he replies

WTF! I can’t hide from them. But nothing has ever been simple in my life. All you can do is just go with the flow. It’s really unbelievable sometimes.

We had some dinner and afterwards we head to the hotel to check in. My friend and I were sharing a room. We headed towards our room and see Throwback. She looked so cute. I haven’t seen her in a couple of weeks. I didn’t have any of her contact info. So we haven’t had any contact since she left San Jose.

I looked at her and wondered what I should do. Should I leave her alone and just leave it as a fling or go after her and see what happens?

Could you guess what I choose? Of course I went after her. I moved my stuff into her room and let my friend have the room to himself.

Throwback and I picked up where we left off. The more time I spent with her the more beautiful she looked to me. Everything was so simple and easy going. We just clicked. I loved spending all my time with her. On top of that she was such a talented martial artist. I could see myself falling for this girl.

The next day the promoter came to pick us up and knocked on Throwback’s door. I opened the door. He was shocked. He wasn’t expecting me to be in there at all. The look on his face was priceless.

The tournament was same old same old. Funny thing is that my form from this tournament would be one of the most viewed form videos across the Internet a couple of years later. Overall the tournament was fun. I met a lot cool people and made new friends.

Throwback and I had spent 4 days together. We had a very passionate week together. I felt that I couldn’t keep this just a fling. I asked her if she wanted to try to make this more then just a fling and if she wanted to be in a relationship with me.

“Let’s just keep this what it is.” She replies

Ouch! I just got shut down hard. Well that’s what I get. I was a bit heartbroken. I gave her a kiss goodbye at the airport and that was the end of that.

Next stop England…

My friend and I set up a couple of seminars in England. We landed in London and met up with Gifted. This was going to be a non stop cluster fuck for sure.

We were supposed to stay at gifted place but we ended up staying at another friends house. Thank the lord that we didn’t stay at her place. I don’t think I could handle being around another female right now.

So we were all chilling at the house, bull shitting and hanging out. Gifted decided that she was going to sit next to me. I swear when you don’t want it; they know and they want to make it as hard as possible.

I could have ended her advances by just getting up and moving somewhere else. That would have been the smart thing to do. I never make the correct decision. I flirted back with her. It was harmless and fun. It never stays that way though. If I’m going to go down, I’m going go down in flames

Gifted and I would spend the next couple of days playing cat and mouse. A game which I really hated playing. I got caught up in the game though. My feelings were getting involved and it was starting to get frustrating. Which I think was more because of what happened with Throwback then actually being about Gifted.

I had also planned to see the girl I had met in Vegas seven years ago. What a crazy story of how I got back in contact with her.

While I was dating Atlanta, a friend of mine was chatting on AOL. If you don’t know what that means, I’ll give you a little Internet history lesson then.

Back when people had dial up (This is when plugged your phone line into your computer and it would call a specific number offered by the Internet service provider to access the Internet. It sounded a lot like a fax machine.) Most people connected to AOL for Internet. What made AOL so popular was the “you got mail” sound byte that would come up when you had an email and user created chat rooms that anyone could enter and chat with random people that also had AOL.

So my friend met a girl in a chat room. She was from England. They talked for a bit and my name came up during one of their many conversations. She told him that she knew a Kim that lived in California. My friend told her that I was Asian and that I did martial arts. She said that the Kim she knew also did martial arts and was Asian.

The girl ended up being the “Vegas” girl’s sister. What is the likeliness of that? I didn’t talk to “Vegas” at that time because I was dating Atlanta.

After Atlanta left me. I searched the Internet to see if I could find Vegas again. All the info I had was her AOL email. Problem was by the time I was looking for her I didn’t have AOL anymore. No one had AOL anymore.

So I did some detective work. I remember a friend of mine that lived outside the states was using a chat program called ICQ. I installed ICQ on my computer and did a search in their database for Vegas. I think fifty names came up. I was able to weed it down to 3 or 4 people. Sent them all emails. In one of the profiles there was an AIM screen name. I put that name into my buddy list. And waited for a reply. I didn’t get a reply from any of them.

A few years later. I was heading out the door to a tournament. I was running a bit late to the airport. I was about to shut down my computer and I heard a door open in my AIM buddy list. Meaning someone had come online. It was Vegas. I couldn’t believe it. I only had a minute to talk to her. I wrote a quick message to her.

During the ride to the airport I had called a friend to help me communicate with her. So I was having a friend of mine sign onto my AIM account and sending messages back and forth until I got her phone number and email.

So here I am in England and meeting up Vegas again soon. Which was great because I was tired of playing games with Gifted.

I was 4 hours late. We woke up a lot later then I thought we would and we had a three-hour car ride back to London from northern England. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to see her again.

We finally made to London and met up with her. She looked Amazing. I couldn’t believe how beautiful she looked. The one thing that was really messed up about the situation was that she was married and had a kid. I couldn’t believe how good she looked after having a kid. She looked drop dead gorgeous. She was a girl when I met her 7 years ago. She was a full-blown woman now.

I wasn’t sure how to approach her when I saw her because she was married. She knew exactly how to greet me though. She walked towards me and gave me the biggest and tightest hug, When she released her strangle hold on me she held my arm and I introduced her to everyone.

Gifted wasn’t too happy with what she was seeing. But that’s what she gets for playing games.

We all had lunch together at a Chinese restaurant. Vegas sat super close to me and Gifted was on the other side of the table. I totally shut out Gifted. Vegas was so full of life and energy. Showing me pictures of her son. She had gotten a tattoo of cherry blossoms on the side of her body. It was very sexy.

After lunch Vegas had to get home. I walked her the subway. I gave her a big hug goodbye. Then she kissed me. I was shocked. I was frozen for a second. She then told me that she would have really kissed me if we weren’t in such a public place. Wow I thought that kiss we just had was real enough.

We headed to the airport. Gifted chased me for a bit after seeing Vegas and I. But I was done with the game. I have had enough of these unpredictable English girls.

On the long plane ride home I started to think about how simple my life was before all this crazy girl drama. So when I got home I called Trouble again. I apologized to her for not calling her for over a month, I told her that I was having issues with myself and being in a long distance relationship and that I needed some time to think about it what I wanted. Which was a complete lie.

One bad decision deserves another post #17

One bad decision deserves another

March 2004

Off to Charlie Lee Nationals (CLN). The trickers tournament. For some reason trickers from everywhere flock to this event. You would think they would wait till the summer time to have a gathering like this. But I guess who wants to wait that long to trick with everyone.

To review my situation so this doesn’t get to confusing. Because right now I’m feel there is so much to tell that I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all. Here we go.

Girls involved:

1. Trouble (young girl I met in Florida)

2. DAS aka Down Ass Chick (Current Girlfriend)

3. Throwback (Young girl from England)

4. Gifted (Another English girl I have been flirting with online)

My current situation.

1. Trouble is out of the picture.

2. DAS made me feel insecure

3. Throwback making me feel better

4. Gifted is at CLN with her current boy toy

Now that we are all caught up. Lets continue with craziness that is about to ensue.

Junior came with me to CLN. Which at first was a great idea until I messed with Throwback. Now it’s a problem.

Throwback, Junior and I kicked it on Thursday night together. The three of us had dinner and after dinner we hung out in the room together.

Then Junior leaves. Which at the time I thought he was hooking a brother up. I had no idea that he was upset with me yet.

Throwback and I messed around for a bit. Then I get a phone call from a friend of mine. Telling me that Junior is really pissed off at me right now. He was walking around town alone in the cold trying to not lose his mind.

I was shocked. I shouldn’t have been though. It was fucked up what I did to him and then shoving it in his face. I was a bad friend. I’ve always had a problem with being selfish. A very horrible quality of mine.

I finally get him back to the room. We talk about what was going on. He was upset that I was cheating on DAS. I thought he was more upset about me hooking up with a girl he liked. It was a bad spot I was putting him in. I had assumed that we had the bro code understanding. But he was really good friends with DAS. So I realized I needed to resolve the situation as best I can right now. I told him that I would not hang out with Throwback anymore. This eased him and we went on with our weekend.

The tournament was uneventful. No great martial arts story to talk about. Not much I can remember about. All I remember was that it was strange to stay away from Throwback. We looked at each a lot from across the room. Wanting to hang out but we both knew that we couldn’t. The only time I was able to be near her was when everyone was in a large group. But I didn’t speak to her.

I would talk with Gifted for small pockets of time. Never alone though. Which was a good thing. She always gave me this crazy look. That look you give when your up to no good and only you and someone else knows. Thankfully that’s all it was. I don’t think I could handle it, if she decided to join the game too.

The weekend was finally over and I was on my way home. Throwback wouldn’t be back at my house until Tuesday. I had some time to settle back into the normal life again.

On Monday I was back at work. It was definitely one of those Mondays. Only multiply it by ten. DAS and Junior weren’t talking to me and were both giving me the dirtiest looks. I think he told DAS about what’s been going on. I’m in alot trouble.

I was giving DAS a ride home after work. So I was gonna get an earful from her. He went ballistic on me in the car. Yelling at me and asking why I did it. I couldn’t give her any real excuse. I gave some bone head excuse about wanting to know if I really wanting be with her, so I cheated on her. WOW the things guys say when they are on the spot. I only angered her even more. It felt like forever to get to her place. I finally dropped her off and she slammed my door and stormed off.

What a day. Thankfully it was over finally.

The next day was more of the same. Only I didn’t try to talk to either of them. Did my thing at work and then went home. DAS and I had our final chat over text. She was a bit calmer. That was because she was done with it. The last things she said to me were. If she knew it was gonna end so soon, she wouldn’t have waited to have sex. I was confused. I asked her if she still wanted to try to work it out. She replies.

“Let it burn”

The next day Throwback was coming back home. Nothing was holding me back from hanging out with her anymore. I decided to make the most of it.

We spent the day together and it was good to forget about all the problems that I was having. We slept together and I was one pump chump. Now I felt worse then ever. From high to low in a matter of minutes.

After the uncomfortable moment of silence. I told her that Lets just keep this what it is. I will probably never see her again and we would just be wasting each other’s time if we try to pretend this could become something.

She agreed and the next day I dropped her off at the airport and the madness was finally over. For the mean time at least.

The madness begins pt. 2 post #16

The madness begins pt. 2

February 2004

I have a girlfriend again. It’s been a long long time. I’ve forgotten what it was like to feel wanted by a female. It’s so amazing. Also she was only a couple years younger then me. I felt it was a lot easier to get along with her since she wasn’t so much younger then me. I had stopped calling or picking up calls from Trouble. A total dick move on my part. I couldn’t even give her the courtesy of a letting her know its over. I left her hanging.

DAS and I made plans for her to stay the night at my place. Which was still my parent’s house. We had to arrange it because she had a dog that needed to be watched over night.

After work we got ready for our date. We had dinner together and we went back to my place. I was excited. Well of course I was, I’m a guy after all. So we got into bed together and watched a movie for a bit. Then… She fell asleep. I was confused. I’m guessing she was tired from the long day.

The morning came and it was nice to sleep next to woman again. We messed around for a bit. I think it was more of the fact that we should do it because of all the trouble we went through to make last night happen. Rather then really wanting to do it. But ill never really know.

A week later we try again. Once again she fell asleep again. In the morning the same thing happened. Only this time it felt a like we wanted to instead of doing it just to be doing it.

One problem that happened with each time we messed around was I had forgotten how to pleasure a woman. I was completely lost. I had no idea what I was doing. She was practically guiding me through the whole thing. Poor girl. That was must have been horrible.

Things started to go downhill from there. We went out dancing again. To a club she used to work at. When we got there she greeted all the bouncers and girls that worked there. It’s a bit intimidating to be with a girl that knew or dated guys like that. Made me think why is she with me. My insecurities are starting to get to me a bit. She didn’t introduce me as her boyfriend or a guy that she was a bit serious about. She wouldn’t dance with me and was trying to act cool.

I was trying to brush off what just happened. But I should have confronted her and told her how I felt. I was still a coward. I’m not one for confrontation.

The next day I went to work out with some boys. Two British Trickers came to hang out with the crew a couple of weeks. A guy and a girl. It was a fun session like always. Everyone acting like goofballs. After the session we went back to a friends house that the brits were staying at.

The thing of night was a bow and an arrow with a suction cup. It began with just shooting it, then hitting things, and then hitting people, and then it came down to a game of mercy using the bow and arrow. That night a couple of guys left with some nasty red marks. All in all, an entertaining night.

The next day the brits were kick out of the house because of the rowdy party last night. So I took them in.

After work that night DAS, the brit girl (Throwback), My boss’s son (Junior) and myself had dinner. It was a chilled dinner. Junior was starting to like Throwback. I don’t blame him. English accents are sexy as hell. Add on top of that she was very cute and a pretty good tricker. Probably the best girl tricker in the world at the time.

I spent a lot of time with Junior and Throwback. Junior was like the little bro I didn’t have. Good kid. Over the next couple of days I told Throwback about the story about Atlanta and Turtle. She knew who turtle was and enjoyed hearing about all my drama. I told her that I had been talking to another girl from England that she knew of. It was just harmless internet flirting.

I went out with DAS again later the week. We went dancing again. Same Club. Again the same thing happened. I was really tired of this game. Again I didn’t tell her how she made me felt. I dropped her off at her place and acted like nothing was wrong.

I came home and saw Throwback. She was so cute, sweet and nice to me. I decided to say fuck it and get at this girl. This girl was a lot younger then me. I seem to be attracted to the youngins lately.

So I went for it. We chilled together with everyone in my room. I slipped my hand under a pillow and grabbed her hand. She accepted my advance. As people began to fall asleep. Throwback and I made out on my bed for awhile. I wasn’t thinking about my consequences. I had forgotten that Junior was into Throwback. This was gonna come back and haunt me.

The Madness Begins pt 1 post #15

The Madness Begins

January 2004

I’ve spent 6 months speaking with trouble. We have been on the phone with each other every night. I’m starting to fall in love with her. But I cant do anything about how I feel because she is still underage. So for the moment I’m just enjoying the company of a girl that I haven’t seen since we first met.

I started teaching at a new karate school. Everyone is really nice to work with. I’ve finally started to try to make new friends and escape the cave I have been living in for the past 6 months.

Here is where the drama starts to brew again. There is a girl that works the front desk that I used to see working at some of the clubs I used to visit regularly. She was a hottie. So much so that I wouldn’t even say anything to her back then. But we work together now and I have an excuse to talk to her. I think she is much hotter now then she was when I was clubbing back then.

The weeks pass and we are becoming better friends. I like her sense of humor and the tough chick attitude. I think we are flirting but I’m not really sure. I’ve some how created a situation with two girls. One in the day that I hang out with physically and one at night that is all talking. Oh yes let the drama begin.

One day at work everyone is in the office together at the end of the night. We decided to go out to a club that night. Everyone agreed and I was happy that we were all going to out together tonight.

Before we all leave the office to head out and get ready. I tell Down Ass Chick, DAS for short (Front desk girl) that I’m happy that she is so cool and that I consider her one of the guys. The smile that was on her face turned into an angry face within seconds. She stormed out of the office as she said something to me that I can’t really remember. But I know it was something to let me know what I said wasn’t cool with her.

I ride home totally confused. Trying to figure out what just happened back there. I thought I was paying her a compliment. I spend the next couple of hours trying to figure out what I did that could have turned her off so fast.

Then all of sudden it comes to me. I’ve seen this in a movie before. Where a guy tells his best friend who is a girl that she is so happy that they are just friends and she is like one of the guys. The girl gets angry and the guy is totally clueless. I remember watching the scene and telling myself what a loser he was for not seeing it.

Here I am repeating the same thing. So I call DAS and tell her I’m sorry for upsetting her and hopes she comes out tonight. She says its all good and she will definitely be going out tonight. I was relieved that she is still coming out. I would love to dance with her. She is HAWT!

We spent the whole night dancing together. Wow what a great night. She was a great dancer and she was easy on the eyes. I asked her out to the movies that night and she agreed. Wow a date! I don’t even remember the last time I had a date. It was like I was in high school and I asked out the hottest girl in school and she agreed. I was on such a high.

The next week we went on a date to the movies. It was your basic date. Pick up the girl from her place, hello hug, open the car door for her, talk on the way to the movie theater, buy the tickets, and sit together. Now this is where the fun begins.

This is where the unspoken communication begins. Which when you break it down is pretty hilarious.

The movie begins and no one claims the armrest. I claim the armrest first and lean towards her without making any contact with her arm. Moments later her arm is touching mine. Then fore arms make contact. Handholding begins. Playful handholding ensues. My hands begin to massage her thighs; she holds onto my arm and rests her head on my shoulder.

But my nervousness gets the best of me. I can’t kiss her. I’m overwhelmed by the moment. It’s like a dream and I don’t want to ruin the moment. I tell her I’m really nervous to kiss her. She tells me that we shouldn’t kiss then. I loved the idea and continued to just have her on my arm. What a sweetheart.

The date ended with me walking her to her door and we hugged each other and I kissed her on the cheek.

When I got home I wanted to talk to her so bad. But I didn’t want to smother her. Then she calls me. Wow this girl is the shit. We spend the night just talking about random stuff. That was the best date ever.

The next day I had to make a decision of what I was going to do with Trouble. I felt bad to break up with her. Not even sure if it was even a relationship. But I felt I would have to tell her.

Of course the coward that I was, I didn’t say anything to her. I just kept playing the game. I knew I had to tell DAS about what I had gotten myself into. I knew that I would be better with DAS since we lived close to each other.

I told DAS everything. She got so mad. Going off on me about how guys always go after young girls and how its total bullshit. I wasn’t even going to put my two cents in. I just hoped that she would still see me after I told her that I was talking to another girl before her but its was just a phone thing and that I wanted to be with her.

We went out again and everything was so great. I think I found a girl that I could really be happy with again. We went back to my place later that night. Made out for the rest of the night. We talked a lot and decided to wait for a while before having sex. I was totally down for that. It’s been 2 years since I’ve had sex with a female. I wasn’t ready for that yet.

This is a long and drama filled story. In the next part another girl comes in and throws a wrench into my plans for a normal relationship.

Here we go again post #14

Here we go again

July 2003

I’m Florida again. I’m really starting to hate this place. I tell myself to never come here again and every year I find myself back here. This tournament has been nothing but drama for me since I’ve been going.

My new form has been looking better after every tournament I’ve been too. Turtle has started to realize that beating me won’t be easy anymore. The last tournament, I started to notice that his form was starting to look a bit similar to mine. Which bothered me a bit. He beat me last month. But I’m closing the gap between us. People were starting to believe my musical form is better then his. The problem now is having the judges see it that way.

I started to realize that the friends Atlanta and I shared have all started to hang with her and turtle and I was left out. Which is understandable. I don’t really have much in common with them. I’ve always been a lone wolf anyways.

My form is feeling a lot better. No more free styling and after every tournament I’m able to tweak it to be sharper. I should be able to beat turtle hands down.

I’m sitting and stretching waiting for the tournament to begin. Watching Atlanta and the gang hanging out and having a good time. Which is annoying for some reason. Then out of the blue a girl approaches me.

She says hi and acts as though she knows me. She is beautiful. She has fake dark red hair. Which I think is very sexy. Her eyes are piercing green. Her body is amazing. Up to this point I still haven’t spoken to a girl since Atlanta left me. This conversation will be quite interesting.

“Do you remember me?” she asks.

I try hard to remember this girl. How do I not remember meeting a hottie like this? I begin to point my finger at her trying so hard to remember who she is. I’m hoping by the time my finger is pointing at her I would remember her.

“ummm… nope.” I reply

Shameful. That was a smooth move. I’m starting verbal vomit right now. You know when you thinking about something in your head and instead of it just being a thought it find’s a way out of your mouth.

“I sat with you last year here at the finals” She said

She did? I didn’t make a move on her? I’m terribly confused right now. There is no way in hell I could have let a girl like this get past me. I try real hard to remember her. Digging deep into my mind. I go for the finger point thing again. As my finger begins to rise to her again.

“Oh yeah…(long pause)… I don’t remember”

Lame. This is getting really bad. I still have no idea who this girl is, but I really want to get to know her. She is crazy sexy. I’m hypnotized just looking at her. Then a glimmer of hope comes.

“Wait a minute… I do remember you. We sat at the finals last year with a couple of friends. But I don’t remember your name” I said

But still how did I not go after this girl. Something is not right here. There is a disturbance in the force.

“My name is Trouble.”

I remember her now. She was after a friend of mine last year and that’s why I didn’t go after her. There was something else about her that I just couldn’t remember. Then it all comes back to me. Instead of the slow point. I instantly point at her going into a sudden stance. The stance is like a defensive stance when you know you been doing something wrong and you just realize it.

“I totally remember you know. You were friends with Gossip. You were 16 last year right?” I said

“yeah” she replied

“and now… your 17?” I asked

“ yup” she said

“ wow, well you look great. It was nice talking to you. I got to go now”

I ran in fear of losing my life.

Wow did I feel like a pedophile. I was undressing her with my eyes through out that whole conversation. I feel grossed out. But I couldn’t deny that she was a hottie. That was too bad.

My division had finally started. I’m stoked. I can’t wait to beat turtle. I’m not seeded so I have to draw cards to see when I will go. Seeded competitors go at the end of the division after the rest of the competitors. It’s a way to reward people who are spending a lot of money every month to go to each of the circuit tournaments.

I finished my form. The reception of it has been getting better and I feel I performed a solid form. What would happen next blew me away.

Turtle was beginning his form. The very first move of his form looked a lot like my move. Starting from the judges he through a trick that landed him to the back of the ring. It was very similar to what I’ve been doing.

As I watched his form. His form looked a lot like mine. When he finished. He had stolen the whole format of my form. I couldn’t believe it. He just did my form.

I have never witnessed plagiarism at this level of competition. Then his scores were given. He beat me. Wow he had just beaten me with my own form. First he steals my girlfriend then he steals my form. I was in total shock. But I was powerless. What was I going to do? Confront him and call him a biter. He beat me fair and square. There is no rule that said he couldn’t do that. How was I going to ever beat him again? I have never felt so defeated before.

On top of all of this. I had no one to talk to about what just happened. All the people I knew were better friends with turtle. I hate this tournament with a passion.

I sulked for a while trying to think of what I was going to do with myself now. It was the only division I had and I was done for the entire weekend. All I had now was free time. So I decided to keep my mind occupied with my favorite distraction. Not video games but the company of a female.

Yeah she was 17 but I didn’t want to hook up with her. I just wanted someone to hang out with. Its not like she wanted to hook up with me. She was just being nice. As long as I don’t make any moves this will be harmless.

I walked up to Trouble and started up conversation with her. She was easy to talk to. Pretty young thing. She will definitely makes this weekend go by faster. It was actually nice to just talk with a girl without wanting to hook up for once. I don’t think I was ready to dive right in like that. It has been almost 2 years since I’ve even spoken to a girl.

I spent almost every moment of the weekend with her. She was easy to talk to and easy on the eyes. I couldn’t have wanted a better distraction.

“I need to check in with my dad” she told me

I thought to myself. Aww isn’t that cute, she had to check in with her dad. I haven’t met him yet. She told me that he was a karate school manager and one of my teammates came from his school. I walked with her to check in with her dad.

The dad was really friendly. We talked about karate for a bit. He asked if Trouble and I had eaten yet. We said no. He offered me to have dinner with them. I really didn’t want to have dinner with them. But I felt obligated to join them because he offered.

I really hope that he wasn’t thinking that I was trying to hook up with his daughter. That would be all bad. This dinner could go really bad.

We sat down in the restaurant. I was fearful of a silent dinner and struggling to spark conversation. The funny thing is that it was the complete opposite. I spoke with the father the whole time. I rarely spoke with problem. Dinner went great. Of course conversation with her father would be easy. She learned it from him.

As we left dinner. She garbs my arm and tells me that he likes me.

What is that supposed to mean? She said it in way that puzzled me. Reminded me of a time when I was a teenager and would meet parents of girls I hung out with. I think I’m in trouble.

We spent the rest of the night together. Just talking. I couldn’t believe we had to so much to talk about.

We sat together watching the finals. Then it all went down hill from there. She sat close to me. She rubbed her arm on mine. I think she is coming on to me. This isn’t right. I need to distance us. But why do I? did I have intention of sleeping with her. I would never let that happen. So why not just go with the flow. So I said fuck it. She was a nice girl that had kept me company all weekend. Why not just have fun.

So I put my hand on her thigh. She held onto my arm. It was warm and comfortable. We spent the entire show being cuddly. I turned and looked at her. She looked happy. For the first time in a long time the feeling of being wanted by a girl came back. I’ve missed it so much.

She looked up at me. I loved looking at her. Her eyes were so beautiful. Then she pulled me towards her. Then we kissed. After we kissed I looked at her and smiled. She squeezed my arm and smiled back. It was such an innocent moment. I turned and watched the show again. I could have stared at her the whole night. But I know what would happen if I kept staring at her.

Lets just keep this innocent and sweet. The finals ended and we spent the rest of night walking talking and making out here and there. I felt like I was a teenager again.

It was getting late and she had to go back and meet her dad. It was a great night and I wanted to keep it that way. I didn’t want this to go any farther. Lets just keep this a great memory. I’m not going ask her for her phone number.

As we headed towards where her farther was. She asked me for my phone number. Nooooooo. I didn’t want to give it to her. It’s happening again. We exchanged numbers. I thought if I didn’t call her, she wont call me. So it will be ok.

I swear I’m such an idiot when it comes to predicting what girls will do.