If I’m going to go down, I’m going down in flames post #18

If I’m going to go down, I’m going down in flames post #18

April 2004

Last month was rough. Had a long distance relationship. Left the long distance girl for a local girl. Cheated on the local girl for a girl that lived even farther then the previous long distance girl.

That was enough drama for a while; I needed a vacation from girls. Lucky for me, I got a call to compete at a tournament in Paris.

A fourteen-hour plane ride later, we arrived in Paris. The promoter of the event picked us up from the airport. I was excited to be in a foreign country and performing. Also I felt so relieved to be away from all the drama from last month.

I asked the promoter who else is coming to the tournament.

“Throwback will be here later tonight” he replies

WTF! I can’t hide from them. But nothing has ever been simple in my life. All you can do is just go with the flow. It’s really unbelievable sometimes.

We had some dinner and afterwards we head to the hotel to check in. My friend and I were sharing a room. We headed towards our room and see Throwback. She looked so cute. I haven’t seen her in a couple of weeks. I didn’t have any of her contact info. So we haven’t had any contact since she left San Jose.

I looked at her and wondered what I should do. Should I leave her alone and just leave it as a fling or go after her and see what happens?

Could you guess what I choose? Of course I went after her. I moved my stuff into her room and let my friend have the room to himself.

Throwback and I picked up where we left off. The more time I spent with her the more beautiful she looked to me. Everything was so simple and easy going. We just clicked. I loved spending all my time with her. On top of that she was such a talented martial artist. I could see myself falling for this girl.

The next day the promoter came to pick us up and knocked on Throwback’s door. I opened the door. He was shocked. He wasn’t expecting me to be in there at all. The look on his face was priceless.

The tournament was same old same old. Funny thing is that my form from this tournament would be one of the most viewed form videos across the Internet a couple of years later. Overall the tournament was fun. I met a lot cool people and made new friends.

Throwback and I had spent 4 days together. We had a very passionate week together. I felt that I couldn’t keep this just a fling. I asked her if she wanted to try to make this more then just a fling and if she wanted to be in a relationship with me.

“Let’s just keep this what it is.” She replies

Ouch! I just got shut down hard. Well that’s what I get. I was a bit heartbroken. I gave her a kiss goodbye at the airport and that was the end of that.

Next stop England…

My friend and I set up a couple of seminars in England. We landed in London and met up with Gifted. This was going to be a non stop cluster fuck for sure.

We were supposed to stay at gifted place but we ended up staying at another friends house. Thank the lord that we didn’t stay at her place. I don’t think I could handle being around another female right now.

So we were all chilling at the house, bull shitting and hanging out. Gifted decided that she was going to sit next to me. I swear when you don’t want it; they know and they want to make it as hard as possible.

I could have ended her advances by just getting up and moving somewhere else. That would have been the smart thing to do. I never make the correct decision. I flirted back with her. It was harmless and fun. It never stays that way though. If I’m going to go down, I’m going go down in flames

Gifted and I would spend the next couple of days playing cat and mouse. A game which I really hated playing. I got caught up in the game though. My feelings were getting involved and it was starting to get frustrating. Which I think was more because of what happened with Throwback then actually being about Gifted.

I had also planned to see the girl I had met in Vegas seven years ago. What a crazy story of how I got back in contact with her.

While I was dating Atlanta, a friend of mine was chatting on AOL. If you don’t know what that means, I’ll give you a little Internet history lesson then.

Back when people had dial up (This is when plugged your phone line into your computer and it would call a specific number offered by the Internet service provider to access the Internet. It sounded a lot like a fax machine.) Most people connected to AOL for Internet. What made AOL so popular was the “you got mail” sound byte that would come up when you had an email and user created chat rooms that anyone could enter and chat with random people that also had AOL.

So my friend met a girl in a chat room. She was from England. They talked for a bit and my name came up during one of their many conversations. She told him that she knew a Kim that lived in California. My friend told her that I was Asian and that I did martial arts. She said that the Kim she knew also did martial arts and was Asian.

The girl ended up being the “Vegas” girl’s sister. What is the likeliness of that? I didn’t talk to “Vegas” at that time because I was dating Atlanta.

After Atlanta left me. I searched the Internet to see if I could find Vegas again. All the info I had was her AOL email. Problem was by the time I was looking for her I didn’t have AOL anymore. No one had AOL anymore.

So I did some detective work. I remember a friend of mine that lived outside the states was using a chat program called ICQ. I installed ICQ on my computer and did a search in their database for Vegas. I think fifty names came up. I was able to weed it down to 3 or 4 people. Sent them all emails. In one of the profiles there was an AIM screen name. I put that name into my buddy list. And waited for a reply. I didn’t get a reply from any of them.

A few years later. I was heading out the door to a tournament. I was running a bit late to the airport. I was about to shut down my computer and I heard a door open in my AIM buddy list. Meaning someone had come online. It was Vegas. I couldn’t believe it. I only had a minute to talk to her. I wrote a quick message to her.

During the ride to the airport I had called a friend to help me communicate with her. So I was having a friend of mine sign onto my AIM account and sending messages back and forth until I got her phone number and email.

So here I am in England and meeting up Vegas again soon. Which was great because I was tired of playing games with Gifted.

I was 4 hours late. We woke up a lot later then I thought we would and we had a three-hour car ride back to London from northern England. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to see her again.

We finally made to London and met up with her. She looked Amazing. I couldn’t believe how beautiful she looked. The one thing that was really messed up about the situation was that she was married and had a kid. I couldn’t believe how good she looked after having a kid. She looked drop dead gorgeous. She was a girl when I met her 7 years ago. She was a full-blown woman now.

I wasn’t sure how to approach her when I saw her because she was married. She knew exactly how to greet me though. She walked towards me and gave me the biggest and tightest hug, When she released her strangle hold on me she held my arm and I introduced her to everyone.

Gifted wasn’t too happy with what she was seeing. But that’s what she gets for playing games.

We all had lunch together at a Chinese restaurant. Vegas sat super close to me and Gifted was on the other side of the table. I totally shut out Gifted. Vegas was so full of life and energy. Showing me pictures of her son. She had gotten a tattoo of cherry blossoms on the side of her body. It was very sexy.

After lunch Vegas had to get home. I walked her the subway. I gave her a big hug goodbye. Then she kissed me. I was shocked. I was frozen for a second. She then told me that she would have really kissed me if we weren’t in such a public place. Wow I thought that kiss we just had was real enough.

We headed to the airport. Gifted chased me for a bit after seeing Vegas and I. But I was done with the game. I have had enough of these unpredictable English girls.

On the long plane ride home I started to think about how simple my life was before all this crazy girl drama. So when I got home I called Trouble again. I apologized to her for not calling her for over a month, I told her that I was having issues with myself and being in a long distance relationship and that I needed some time to think about it what I wanted. Which was a complete lie.