One bad decision deserves another post #17

One bad decision deserves another

March 2004

Off to Charlie Lee Nationals (CLN). The trickers tournament. For some reason trickers from everywhere flock to this event. You would think they would wait till the summer time to have a gathering like this. But I guess who wants to wait that long to trick with everyone.

To review my situation so this doesn’t get to confusing. Because right now I’m feel there is so much to tell that I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all. Here we go.

Girls involved:

1. Trouble (young girl I met in Florida)

2. DAS aka Down Ass Chick (Current Girlfriend)

3. Throwback (Young girl from England)

4. Gifted (Another English girl I have been flirting with online)

My current situation.

1. Trouble is out of the picture.

2. DAS made me feel insecure

3. Throwback making me feel better

4. Gifted is at CLN with her current boy toy

Now that we are all caught up. Lets continue with craziness that is about to ensue.

Junior came with me to CLN. Which at first was a great idea until I messed with Throwback. Now it’s a problem.

Throwback, Junior and I kicked it on Thursday night together. The three of us had dinner and after dinner we hung out in the room together.

Then Junior leaves. Which at the time I thought he was hooking a brother up. I had no idea that he was upset with me yet.

Throwback and I messed around for a bit. Then I get a phone call from a friend of mine. Telling me that Junior is really pissed off at me right now. He was walking around town alone in the cold trying to not lose his mind.

I was shocked. I shouldn’t have been though. It was fucked up what I did to him and then shoving it in his face. I was a bad friend. I’ve always had a problem with being selfish. A very horrible quality of mine.

I finally get him back to the room. We talk about what was going on. He was upset that I was cheating on DAS. I thought he was more upset about me hooking up with a girl he liked. It was a bad spot I was putting him in. I had assumed that we had the bro code understanding. But he was really good friends with DAS. So I realized I needed to resolve the situation as best I can right now. I told him that I would not hang out with Throwback anymore. This eased him and we went on with our weekend.

The tournament was uneventful. No great martial arts story to talk about. Not much I can remember about. All I remember was that it was strange to stay away from Throwback. We looked at each a lot from across the room. Wanting to hang out but we both knew that we couldn’t. The only time I was able to be near her was when everyone was in a large group. But I didn’t speak to her.

I would talk with Gifted for small pockets of time. Never alone though. Which was a good thing. She always gave me this crazy look. That look you give when your up to no good and only you and someone else knows. Thankfully that’s all it was. I don’t think I could handle it, if she decided to join the game too.

The weekend was finally over and I was on my way home. Throwback wouldn’t be back at my house until Tuesday. I had some time to settle back into the normal life again.

On Monday I was back at work. It was definitely one of those Mondays. Only multiply it by ten. DAS and Junior weren’t talking to me and were both giving me the dirtiest looks. I think he told DAS about what’s been going on. I’m in alot trouble.

I was giving DAS a ride home after work. So I was gonna get an earful from her. He went ballistic on me in the car. Yelling at me and asking why I did it. I couldn’t give her any real excuse. I gave some bone head excuse about wanting to know if I really wanting be with her, so I cheated on her. WOW the things guys say when they are on the spot. I only angered her even more. It felt like forever to get to her place. I finally dropped her off and she slammed my door and stormed off.

What a day. Thankfully it was over finally.

The next day was more of the same. Only I didn’t try to talk to either of them. Did my thing at work and then went home. DAS and I had our final chat over text. She was a bit calmer. That was because she was done with it. The last things she said to me were. If she knew it was gonna end so soon, she wouldn’t have waited to have sex. I was confused. I asked her if she still wanted to try to work it out. She replies.

“Let it burn”

The next day Throwback was coming back home. Nothing was holding me back from hanging out with her anymore. I decided to make the most of it.

We spent the day together and it was good to forget about all the problems that I was having. We slept together and I was one pump chump. Now I felt worse then ever. From high to low in a matter of minutes.

After the uncomfortable moment of silence. I told her that Lets just keep this what it is. I will probably never see her again and we would just be wasting each other’s time if we try to pretend this could become something.

She agreed and the next day I dropped her off at the airport and the madness was finally over. For the mean time at least.