The madness begins pt. 2 post #16

The madness begins pt. 2

February 2004

I have a girlfriend again. It’s been a long long time. I’ve forgotten what it was like to feel wanted by a female. It’s so amazing. Also she was only a couple years younger then me. I felt it was a lot easier to get along with her since she wasn’t so much younger then me. I had stopped calling or picking up calls from Trouble. A total dick move on my part. I couldn’t even give her the courtesy of a letting her know its over. I left her hanging.

DAS and I made plans for her to stay the night at my place. Which was still my parent’s house. We had to arrange it because she had a dog that needed to be watched over night.

After work we got ready for our date. We had dinner together and we went back to my place. I was excited. Well of course I was, I’m a guy after all. So we got into bed together and watched a movie for a bit. Then… She fell asleep. I was confused. I’m guessing she was tired from the long day.

The morning came and it was nice to sleep next to woman again. We messed around for a bit. I think it was more of the fact that we should do it because of all the trouble we went through to make last night happen. Rather then really wanting to do it. But ill never really know.

A week later we try again. Once again she fell asleep again. In the morning the same thing happened. Only this time it felt a like we wanted to instead of doing it just to be doing it.

One problem that happened with each time we messed around was I had forgotten how to pleasure a woman. I was completely lost. I had no idea what I was doing. She was practically guiding me through the whole thing. Poor girl. That was must have been horrible.

Things started to go downhill from there. We went out dancing again. To a club she used to work at. When we got there she greeted all the bouncers and girls that worked there. It’s a bit intimidating to be with a girl that knew or dated guys like that. Made me think why is she with me. My insecurities are starting to get to me a bit. She didn’t introduce me as her boyfriend or a guy that she was a bit serious about. She wouldn’t dance with me and was trying to act cool.

I was trying to brush off what just happened. But I should have confronted her and told her how I felt. I was still a coward. I’m not one for confrontation.

The next day I went to work out with some boys. Two British Trickers came to hang out with the crew a couple of weeks. A guy and a girl. It was a fun session like always. Everyone acting like goofballs. After the session we went back to a friends house that the brits were staying at.

The thing of night was a bow and an arrow with a suction cup. It began with just shooting it, then hitting things, and then hitting people, and then it came down to a game of mercy using the bow and arrow. That night a couple of guys left with some nasty red marks. All in all, an entertaining night.

The next day the brits were kick out of the house because of the rowdy party last night. So I took them in.

After work that night DAS, the brit girl (Throwback), My boss’s son (Junior) and myself had dinner. It was a chilled dinner. Junior was starting to like Throwback. I don’t blame him. English accents are sexy as hell. Add on top of that she was very cute and a pretty good tricker. Probably the best girl tricker in the world at the time.

I spent a lot of time with Junior and Throwback. Junior was like the little bro I didn’t have. Good kid. Over the next couple of days I told Throwback about the story about Atlanta and Turtle. She knew who turtle was and enjoyed hearing about all my drama. I told her that I had been talking to another girl from England that she knew of. It was just harmless internet flirting.

I went out with DAS again later the week. We went dancing again. Same Club. Again the same thing happened. I was really tired of this game. Again I didn’t tell her how she made me felt. I dropped her off at her place and acted like nothing was wrong.

I came home and saw Throwback. She was so cute, sweet and nice to me. I decided to say fuck it and get at this girl. This girl was a lot younger then me. I seem to be attracted to the youngins lately.

So I went for it. We chilled together with everyone in my room. I slipped my hand under a pillow and grabbed her hand. She accepted my advance. As people began to fall asleep. Throwback and I made out on my bed for awhile. I wasn’t thinking about my consequences. I had forgotten that Junior was into Throwback. This was gonna come back and haunt me.